Questions on Self -doubt

A false sense of something, all the time. Why?
What is reality when you know nothing for sure?
How does one be ok with being judged and rejected repeatedly without understanding the problem?
How does one learn and in imbibe something one does not know how to learn?
How to be adequate when there is such a large gap between who you are and who you should be?
How to be self assured when one doesn't quite be confident of who the 'self' is?
How do you open your eyes to something you've been blinded to all your life?
How can you stop being so stubbornly stuck to a life that does not work anymore?
Why can't you be happy with what yo have and stress over things you don't?
What is good?
What is bad?
Why is it so lonely now?
Am I so worried about one thing that I have let other things go, even more important things?
Why am I so angry about it?
I wish I could forget.
I wish I could forgive.
I wish I could accept.
I wish I could just live.

Step out and then in

Have you ever looked at yourself with your own eyes?
Not as 'I' but as 'she' or 'he'?
Stepped outside your skin and looked down at yourself?
Seen your clothes, your hair and the skewed glasses from another's place?

If so, what did you see?
Did you see someone whom you didn't know at all?
Or someone whom you aspired to be one day and did not know you had become?
Did you see someone pathetic and distraught?
Or realised you needed someone's help after all?

Did you reach out to touch that person
On the head or the shoulders?
Did you hug them and cry or laugh out loud
For how ridiculous the whole idea seemed?

Did you walk into your own person
Adjusting and re-adjusting your world view?
Or stepped away from that 'self'
Because it was difficult to deal with that personal view?

What did you do, darling?
Because when I stepped out, I was still in myself.